Hello everyone, sorry it’s been a while since i’ve written anything here…. but i’ve been going through a difficult time…. i got sick again and had to take time out from work and everything…. it took a few weeks for my body to recover from the terrible aches, pains and tenderness.

Then something else happened to change everything…. i don’t know how or why but i had a hormonal change that was to overturn all and any feelings i had for my new husband…. All my senses were heightened and i couldn’t bear or tolerate all the things that had irritated me any longer.

So my marriage has crumbled…. i felt sorry for husband, he couldn’t understand what happened and i don’t know why it happened…. i asked my doctor he doesn’t know…. i asked him to go home because what was happening wasn’t fair to either of us…. but he wouldn’t saying everything will change when he has a job…. but it wasn’t about that anymore.

So now everything has deteriorated so badly i’m at crisis point…. i can’t stand the stress and tension…. unfortunately my husband borrowed a large sum of money to do a course and get his badge for security…. so i feel like i’m held to ransom over that…. i feel like a caged animal trapped !!!

So i have to wait…. but i don’t know if i can do that