I wonder what this year has in store for me???? One thing I hope for is an end to the pain, please xx

My new bed has been a god send, thanks to my friend Lynn helping me with all my shopping, don’t know what I’d have done without her.

5th of December Thomas, my brother David and wife Sarah’s son enters the world, he’s beautiful, even though I’d only seen him on photographs.

Christmas Day, I was alone and relaxing all was quiet ’til about 8pm fuelled by wine her below kicked off, the same argument, he doesn’t love me, you don’t love me. I shouted down to shut up!!! and turned the volume on my tv up to drown them out, but I was livid and my stress levels raised because of it. Thankfully it didn’t last too long but I’m angry the thought of another situation like previous occasions fills me with dread……

Boxing Day we all went to my sister Hazels, Ruth came to pick me up, but because of child birth problems David and Sarah couldn’t stay so only saw Thomas briefly, he’s so tiny and perfect. We had a nice time at Hazels, lots to eat and drink and I loved all my presents and they should and did too I stayed the night and spent the next day at Ruth and Doug’s.

26 October I learnt of the death of my long time friend Winnie, I’d known her and been cutting and dressing her hair half my life. Going every week or two I probably saw more of her than her family. I didn’t just dress her hair, we became friends  sometimes I’d be there 3/4 hours we’d drink tea and put the world to rights confiding our problems and she always made me something to eat, to keep me going ’til i got home as she’d say. I miss her, I attended her funeral the 9th November, I was very glad her son invited me.

Sorry I have not posted for over 6 months …………

1st July

After 6 months battling with problems with agonising pains in my legs I went to the doctor as I was now in agony in my privates, I’d never experienced pain like it and never want to again. She arranged for me to go into hospital for an mri scan I’d been waiting for so I was seen right away thankfully, the staff were marvellous. I was wheeled onto the ward in a bed, I was pretty scared and cried as I didn’t know what was wrong and felt very alone. I had an mri  scan on my lower back which was fine thankfully. The next day I had an ultra sound. I was in ’til the monday all they could do was give me pain-killers, my ultra sound showed up a small fibroid other than that everything was fine. I had to cancel my holiday as I was due to fly out the next day, I was gutted

I went home on the tuesday afternoon none the wiser as to the cause of my problems. I made an appointment to see my doctor, she gave me some back exercises to do, although  my back felt ok I still had problems in my legs and lower half. I had pain-killers but sometimes they made me feel dreadful, I felt so ill. I saw a different doctor but wasn’t happy I felt he was very complacent and had no understanding of my suffering so my next visit I asked to see a different doctor, she gave me some tablets to help the nerves in my body. I think they have helped with some of the pins and needles and numbness, but they put me to sleep and I’m groggy. So coupled with the pain-killers I’m mostly asleep. But I can’t sleep on my back or left side because of the horrendous pain.